Nicholas Seyz

Nicholas seyz : Let it go. If it returns, its urs for a long long time.
Speculations : Nah. Da good guys onli win in hero action movies.

Nicholas seyz : I like freedom n i give freedom.
Speculations : Da more freedom u give, da more "free" they get.

Nicholas seyz : Its not everything, its just something.
Speculations : Guys tell me I'm wrong. Gals tell me i'm rite.

Nicholas seyz : I am not a good actor, I dun act.
Speculations : U dun have drama everyday, but without drama, life is dull.

Nicholas seyz : Money is not an issue in love.
Speculations : I beg ur pardon? Think again.

Nicholas seyz : Trust is da utmost important factor.
Speculations : Wait till u get "I dunno" for a reason.

Nicholas seyz : I do my best for everything in my control n I leave da rest 2 da fella up there.
Speculations : Sometimes u wished u could have done more than wat u've already had done.

Nicholas seyz : Dun worry, its gonna be ok.
Speculations : I onli hoped it'll be ok, I neva noe if its gonna be.

Nicholas seyz : I'm ok, dun worry.
Speculations : I neva was.

Nicholas seyz : Good nite, sweet dreams.
Speculations : I've neva had 1 in a long long time.

2 Gatsu 14 Ka

I used 2 play da keyboard while u sat beside me.

I used 2 hug u tightly.

I used 2 tell u stories of my life.

I used 2 tell my friends proudly dat u r my gf.

I used 2 put our photographs as my wallpaper.

I used 2 chat with u till late nite.

I used 2 stare straight in ur beautiful eyes.

I used 2 say u were smart.

I used 2 say, my gal plays CS betta than me.

I used 2 be loved.

U used 2 say sleeping is a waste of time.

U used 2 ask me if I loved u.

U used 2 pester me 2 buy soft drinks for u.

U used 2 hold my hand n never let go.

U used 2 call me bao bei in my ear.

U used 2 say u wanted 2 watch me play basketball but never had da chance.

U wanted many things but I couldn’t give u.

U used 2 cry in my arms while I’m helplessly looking.

U used 2 tell me everything bout u n everything u did.

U used 2 tell me excitedly when u’ve gotten good results.

Since when u started saying tq ?

Since when u stopped calling me ?

Since when u rather spend time with ur friends rather than me ?

Since when u started calling me nicholas ?

Since when I have 2 live in loneliness ?

Since when I have 2 eat alone ?

Since when I see a suitable gift but did not buy for my gal ?

Since when our conversations became shorter n shorter ?

Since when our arguments became a part of our lives ?

Since when it all started ?

2 Forget n Go on or 2 Pause n Look back?

Yep, 2day is da big day for my primary school classmate. Known her since standard 1, n shes getting married 2day. Usually kids from my area don't get married so soon, but her case is a bit different. Knowing her was like just yesterday where she was a kid of merely 1 metre tall with her pony tail running up n down da hallways of my primary school, constantly arguing with me bout things n 2day, shes getting married.

I was a blank piece of paper, like everyone else when i was born. However, living in a big city certainly left scars on me after being burnt countless times. I grew up in a competitive environment where survival is crucial, ego, selfish, materialistic, self-protective, emotionless, r all da things we learnt even as a child. I'll give u certain phrases constantly quoted by KL young adults. " Gals r everywhere, u dump 1 n u get 1, its da flow." " We KL ppl always stick 2 da rule of da thumb - We protect our butts" "Money is everything" " I dun run a charity. How much does being courteous pays u?" " Being a litterbug is good. If i dun throw rubbish everywhere, who is going 2 pay da road sweeper for their job?"
Wanna survive in KL, u've gotta learn these city traits.

Friends, i've got tones. True friends dat would put u b4 themselves, hardly any, even now. I guess its as hard 2 find as dinosaurs. Love? I doubt man. Come n tell me if u believe in true love after u've been burnt several times. In KL, Love = Money, so, get money b4 u get love. Ppl often say, : Y dis gal is so pretty n her bf is like shit? Well, next time plz look at his ride b4 making dat statement.

2 be able 2 hide ur thoughts is another essential skill in the law of survival, until now, i'm still not a master of it but i see many of my friends r beyond grandmaster level. 2 da extent dat when they r boasting, its da real stuff n when they r not, its da hoax, seldom u can guess their thoughts.


I have many gp of friends, going out everyday, partying on n off, outings once in a while, yum cha constantly, but somehow, some part in me, i still feel lonely and empty. Is been months, almost a year i've been having dis feeling, yet it does not get betta. Now i even pay more attention 2 it than usual, curiosity n cares comes from a distance. It'll be a long long time for dis 2 subside, i'm a slow healer.

2 forget n go on or 2 pause n look back?